theres this girl in my class…dat i realized im sorta starting to like..ofcourse i havnt said nething..but we r becomin real gud friends…i enjoy spending time wit her, even wen we r simply sittin studyin for a quiz or exam or sumthn…she is a real kew girl, she believes in God, very nice, very sweet…

Im scared tho…my feelings for nana havnt chnged much at all…i still care for her sooo much, i dnt understand it, never befor have i been hung up on one girl b4…especially wen she has made it clear 2 me dat she wants nothin 2 do wit me nemore…i jus dnt understand y i cant let go!!!???/…it really frustrates me, i know im only hurting myself more, i feel like im here waiting for her to realize she made a mistake in lettin me go or sumthn (at the same time knowing she has no intention on givin “us” another chance)…i jus cant seem 2 stop caring, i still wake up in da mornins thinkin bout her wonderin how she is doin, at times i even find myself worried about her…i jus want to let her go already and move on, but i cant…

a part of me really wants to tell my friend dat i kindove like her, but im scared and know it wouldnt b fair to her if she felt the same way….cuz im still practically in love wit nana and havnt been able 2 let her go =/…im also scared dat if i manage 2 move on, im jus gonna end up gettin hurt again..idnt know if i can handle fallin into the hole i was in again…i dnt know wat 2 do =/